Thirty nine

A response to today’s horrific news from Essex. This morning’s news – the immeasurably insensitive “39 dead bodies found in lorry” – came into my work inbox alongside an email about a new Channel 4 show called “Smuggled”, wherein eight British citizens have their passports removed from them and attempt to get back into the…

Grieving

No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing. At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket…

Anger

“My tongue will tell the anger of my heart, or else my heart concealing it will break.”